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Memory Low !

I don't remember Birthdays ! Unless I know you for 15-20 yrs or if you are family !  I have a bad time with names too ! There was a time when I couldn't remember the name of the  guy who sat  in the next row to mine for a year in college.When I needed  his name for something, I had to ask him to spell his name to avoid embarrassment  :D .

So coming back, people, especially friends get pissed with me for forgetting  b'days /anniversaries . It is not that I don't love or care about them ,but its something I can't help.I am done trying to explain to people that I don't need an excuse to tell you how much I love you or how special you are to me. And personally I don't give much importance to any one day of the year ,be it my birthday or some other day ! It's just a day just like every other  . I wake up every single day feeling lucky and  thinking that this is the best day of my life. But I am sorry to anyone who was hurt by my perceived lack of interest. I am sorry if I hurt you ,whether you like it or not .

Now to 'postiver ' things... Last week ,I got a watch for Dad ,which cost 20 times the price of mine. I wouldn't have been this happy if I bought it for myself :) . Its such nice  feeling to  try to give back to people who did so much for you.It reminds me of the sacrifices my  parents made  throughout my life to make me happy, sometimes even without telling me . It makes me respect them more .

My Dad's Uncle was very close to our family even though he stayed pretty far. He passed away when I was a kid. But I still have memories of him coming home  with my favorite cream biscuit :) .He bought this big family pack  :) .And he never forgot to get me that.His son is no different. He worked abroad when I was young.And this one time he got me a Boy London ,color changing(depending on the temperature) watch.I was chatting with him online last week .I thanked him outta the blue for  all those sweet child hood memories and told him  that I use the same strategy with my nephew :) .

One more rotation

Beautiful day.
Rode all day :) .
Bought 4 new  books :D
Later browsed through  Flipkart and found all the books cheaper in it :D .
Thanks god for another day :) 

Ride through a rainy dark night

Its fun driving an SUV in the rain at midnight ,dropping friends home after dinner . Driving back through the empty roads with the FM playing some nice track made me realize how much at peace I am with myself. Won't update all this in FB.Most people there & elsewhere don't know me and may never will.Thats kool !

Something stuck to my mind when I returned home .

No matters what happens,no matter what all gets taken away from me,no matter how much I am humbled,no matter what all I have to go through....Ain't no one gonna wipe this smile off my face :)

May Day !

Barely crawled out of bed.Had an off .Everyone's been telling me to take rest.When did I start listening to what everyone said ?  :D . Gonna murder the punching bag today !

Regards,

 Dead Man

Death

Today ,a colleague of mine passed away in a bike accident .  He was not in my team. I did not know him personally.I remember his face.One of my friends had even wished him when he came to office in the morning .Another one told me that he knew him personally and that he was a good guy  .They had studied together and he had known him for 10 yrs or so.He told me that he did not have the heart to go see the departed's body which was awaiting  postmortem in Manipal Hospital.May his soul rest in peace and may god help his family to go through this tough phase.

I ride a motorbike too . I go to the same office.I travel in the same traffic.It could have been me.Made me think about my mortality . As someone told me  - ' Life is as fragile as a spider's single yarn.A strong gust would wipe it all away'.

Do I fear death ? No.Not mine at least. Another friend  told me not to talk about ' these things '.That 'words have power' and I shouldn't speak about it.Otherwise it would  come true.Out of respect, I did shut up then.

Right now I haven't planned anything.Neither am I expecting something in life.So the thought of a permanent and abrupt 'Power Failure' doesn't scare me anymore.I did a lot of praying  in the past to god asking him to 'spare somebody else of the agony and that I will readily  suffer instead '.Hopefully my luck hasn't run out yet :)


Either ways, if something like that does happen,I have no regrets.I lived a healthy happy life .And a 'short' one as of now :) .God has given me enough .The best being -my amazing parents and family .What would I ask more ? I jus hope  I haven't let them down.

I am not sad.I wish someone somewhere smiles when they think about me  when I am  not  there anymore :) .That would probably make my day in afterlife.Its better to burn out in a flash like a cracker than die slowly like a candle :)

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